A new day…..a whole new day…..with no mistakes in it yet…..it’s a wonderful thought to wake up to….have you ever tried it??? Lie in bed and while strechin’ out your body and slowly awakenin’ think to yourself…….”it’s a beautiful day!” “a whole new day with no mistakes in it”…….

I watched “50 first dates” last night….and even though the whole idea is absurd it’s kind of poetic, don’t you think?

This girl suffers from a condition that makes her forget the entire day….so every mornin’ it’s the same day over and over and over…..it’s a sweet movie….the boy falls in love with the girl with no shortterm memory….so it’s like meetin’ for the first time every day….he has to make her fall in love with him every day…..and for her it’s the first kiss every day……silly?? yes! romantic?? yes!! How many of us don’t wish to feel the butterflies in our stomachs again when we’re about to see our loved one? How many of us still do?? Yes, yes, I know….there’s a whole bunch of you out there….but what about the rest of us?? I love my husband, but I don’t get that butterfly-feelin’ anymore….I’m sorry, but that’s true….I long for the feelin’ of the first kiss….knowin’ I’ll probably never feel it again…..I long to be in love (with fresh new eyes) but know that the love between hubby and me is deeper and more calm than the raging passion of the teen years….but I miss those feelings……I envy (in a good positive way) people who are still “in love” with their spouses…..I am grateful for my husband, he’s a good, good man…..he’s a loving, caring father, so what else can I ask for?……I want stormy feelings!! I want passion!!! I want it to be new every day!!

Of course I know it doesn’t work that way…..still that’s what I want…..

So, you can pitty me, judge me, understand me or just think I’m a nut…..I don’t mind….I’m the one puttin’ my insides out here for you to read…..and I can face the consequences…..This is who I am….no more no less….just me……